Little M is eleven weeks old today and I’m proud (or crazy!) to say that I’m still expressing so that she can be exclusively fed breast milk.
I’ve got mixed feelings about this. Some days I’m really pleased that I’m still going and expressing doesn’t seem like a big deal at all. But other days it just feels like the biggest chore and I wonder why I’m still putting myself through it.
For example, on Saturday we took a trip to the coast with the in-laws. Half way through the afternoon I needed to pump. The trip wasn’t going amazingly well for various reasons and the last thing I wanted to do on a boiling hot day was trek back to the car to express.
I ended up in the front seat, air con on full blast, a curtain fashioned out of a muslin and another tied to my bra straps in a vague attempt to hide the fact that I was hooked up like a prize Friesian.
Thank goodness I was wearing a nursing dress at least.
I know I’ll have to switch to formula at some point. It seems crazy to keep pumping, especially when hubby is at work and I’m doing the night feed, then pumping once Little M has gone back to sleep, meaning I get less sleep than I would otherwise.
Last night Little M slept through from 10:30pm until 6am. Yet I was up at 4am pumping away as I didn’t want to leave it more than five hours to pump for fear of my supply dropping.
I suppose I’ll just have to continue to play it by ear. Part of me wants to get to six months but I’ll have to see. When I’m in situations like the one I was in on Saturday it seems ridiculous but then I think in the grand scheme of my life, six months really isn’t that long, and I’m nearly half way there.
I just want to do what’s best for Little M. But it’s hard to know sometimes what that is.
How long did you breastfeed/express for? What made you make the switch to formula? Did you find it a positive experience? I’d love to hear from you in the comments.